A Dark Confession

Lately I've been doing a little research to try and develop some curriculum on one of my favorite subjects. Middle Eastern History. Everytime I get excited about it I feel like the biggest nerd in the world. But I think I may just give in and get a pocket protector because I LOVE the stories and the intrigue and ALL of it really... mostly I love how God is evident throughout even when the person is completely unaware at the time. I love that God can take the absolute moral failure of a person or persons and use it to not only glorify himself, but save nations, again and again taking what is meant for evil and turning it into blessing. Kind of a relief wouldn't you say?? anyway that's my confession... I'm a bit of a nerd that loves to study what 90% of the world will find incredibly boring.

A moment of silence please, for Marcel Marceau.

I think it's what he would have wanted.

Hmm, interesting....

US Secretary of State Condoleezza Rice said Thursday an upcoming US-sponsored Middle East conference must be "substantive," and that Israel and the Palestinians must draft a document before the meeting that lays "foundations for serious negotiations."

The Palestinians want the conference, tentatively set for November, to yield an outline for a peace deal, complete with timetable, while Israel wants a more vague declaration of intent. Key Arab states, such as Saudi Arabia, have said they would only attend if concrete results were achieved.
Palestinian leaders pressed Rice about the goal of the conference.
The gathering "has to be substantive and advance the cause of a Palestinian state," Rice told a joint news conference with Palestinian Authority President Mahmoud Abbas. Participants must not "simply meet for the sake of meeting," she said.

my curiosity is piqued, will this one indeed be different?

FOTC - Most Beautiful Girl In The Room

Looking round the room I can tell that you
are the most beautiful girl
in the room. The whole
wide room!

FOTC Raps

so funny.... from the show Flight of The Conchords! I am a fan of the first degree!
"my rhymes are bottomless....."

So Long Luciano... So Long...

It's a strange thing... thinking about those you have known (or known of) most of your life, no longer being a part of this world. The idea that you will have no new memories of that person... That every future thought of them will be based on a memory, and thoughts or ideas of who they were will begin to replace the real them. No, the passing of Paverotti hasn't been the thing to make me wax poetic. There are a number of things lately that seem to be constantly revealing how temporal and fragile this life really is. With those thoughts has come the question, "what on earth are you doing?"
Bringing me back to the question I've been asking for the past days and weeks. How NOW shall I live? I have no security of taking another breath tomorrow, of laughing with friends, or sharing a knowing smile. I don't know that I will see another sunset (or sunrise if I were at all the type to wake early enough). I don't know what tomorrow holds, so how NOW should I live?

I don't want to let my thoughts be consumed with "what if"s or "if only"s. I don't want to continue worrying about failed plans and opportunities.
I want to be the person I should be today and not continue to beat myself up over past failures. I want to know God and show him today how much I love him. I want to do today what He desires of me, and not worry anymore about the consequences... knowing that God's will for me is not always in line with the will friends and family have for me.

So there it is again... How do I live today in complete fulfillment of what God has earmarked for me in these next 24 hours?
How do I take captive my thoughts and make them obedient to Christ?
How do I pray continuously, at all times with all kinds of prayer - keeping this in mind... That HE who began a good work in me, will be faithful to complete it.